Putting It Down...: Wasn't Supposed To

Wednesday, September 29, 2021

I wasn't supposed to date people of other religions

I wasn't supposed to have sex before marriage

I wasn't supposed to like it

I wasn't supposed to get pregnant

I wasn't supposed to get married to him

But here I am

And I couldn't be happier.

I wasn't supposed to be a "drama queen"

I wasn't supposed to be rebellious

I wasn't supposed to choose my own path

I wasn't supposed to be impatient

I wasn't supposed to "throw my life away"

Then how come

I feel like I'm fulfilling a part of my purpose?

I'm breaking the cycle

In bad ways and good ways

I will not be like you - who made me believe

That I had to be a certain way

The woman I am today

Is so much stronger and more aware

I'm now a mother

A mama bear

And I will defend my life and my child

I wasn't supposed to be a matriarch

I wasn't supposed to be so assertive

I wasn't supposed to stand in front

I wasn't supposed to call the shots

I wasn't supposed to change the narrative

But here I am

And I choose respect over fear