Cut Away

Here I am Lord.
On my knees and palms open,
Sign that I am submitting to You.
When I forget
and sever myself from You
is when I stumble and realize I am lost.
I spent so much of my time
Focused on another
Until nearly every thought was turned
And I found myself cut away from You.
I forgot my worship.
I forgot my joy.
I forgot my song.
I divided my attention,
Gave too little of it to You.
I thought it was alright,
But I drank solely of the gift,
And forgot the Giver of the gift.
I grew impatient on the slow realization of a dream.
A dream You first gave to me.
How dare I cut You away from it?
How dare I push You out?
Here I am Lord.
On my knees, and praying.
To You be the glory.
Restore my love for You my God.
Restore my reverent adoration to You.
I desire to cherish what You have given me,
Rather than abuse it as I have done.
Here I am Lord.
Awake me once more.
I had cut myself from You.
No more.
Bring me to Your heart,
Fill me with Your Spirit again.
I cannot fix what needs fixing right now.
I cannot change them.
I cannot grow the soul.
Only You can.
Lead on.
Lead on Lord.
You have not forsaken me.
Do not forsake them.
Fill them too.
Not just me.
But give me the patience and strength to see it through.
To wait is hard.
How long Lord?
How much longer must I wait?
How much longer must we wait?
Return to us Lord Jesus.
And never let us be cut away again.
As the bride longs for her bridegroom,
As the thirsty souls long for the Water of Life,
So we long for Your return.
Never let us be cut away again.