Monday, August 11, 2014

Am I Worth It?

a letter.


My lover,
     There was once a time when a knight would choose a lady of the court and would wear something of hers or her family's colors to display his devotion to her during jousting and combat tournaments. And there was a time when a man would build a house for his future family as a young bachelor. If he was rich, he built a mansion. If he was poor he built a small cottage. But the point is not how big or small, lavish or poor the house was. The point is he toiled and labored (or paid laborers) to provide a home for the ones he loved.
     In history men have had to climb mountains and commit deeds of bravery in order to prove themselves men. Nowadays such a thing is almost non-existent. But I recognize a spark of this old determination in you. You expressed the feeling that you were not worthy of me. Then become worthy. I see in you so much potential. Become from the strong young man that I know and love to an amazing man of God that I know you can be.
     You said you wanted the best for me. And out of love for me you told me you wished that I loved another, because you believed yourself nowhere near the best for me. That you wanted better for me. Then become better. Strive to be the best. Make yourself a better man. The man of my dreams.
     If it takes to look upon me as a prize worth fighting for to make you try for me, then do it. Live every day at your best. Study and work hard every day. Keep your life goals in mind every day. And you will grow into a man. They say there are three things that can turn a boy into a man: death, war, or a woman. Let me be that woman. Write my name on your wall and beside it the words, "I will win you." Live every day like a battle. You are a soldier of the Light. Live every day like in a competition. Raise your flag high, knight, lower your visor, and charge into life.
     And maybe, maybe, you will find me waiting for you.
     Maybe I am your prize.
     Am I worth it?
     I know that I will try to be the woman best for you. And if you try to be the man best for me?
     You will only find out if you try.


With sincerest wishes,
Your Treoris.

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