Their True Heart (poems; part 6)

Part 6: Breaking Point


You told me to give myself up.
To give up my desire for acceptance,
for love, for recognition.
You asked if I never received those things again,
would I still choose You?
My faith was brought into question.
Doubt and unbelief and fear rose in my soul.
I asked myself, can I do this?
And I sat, in pain and uncertainty.
I knew that I would fail.
I knew of my humanity and sin.
I knew that I would stumble and seek those things.
I knew if I never received those things again,
I would break.
You never said that this would happen,
if anything You would multiply anything taken away.
You simply asked me to give it to You.
All of it.
Even if the things of this life that I desire most
were locked away from me forever,
would I still follow You?
Yes.
Yes, I give it to You.
All of it.
You chose me, You recognized me,
You accepted me, You loved me.
Be all I need and be my one overwhelming desire.

Their True Heart (poems; part 5)

Part 5: Doubt


Can I do this?
Can I do what you want me to do,
say what needs to be said,
without recognition?
Without the sense of accomplishment
or feeling good?
You gave me recognition this week
for doing your will,
but now you ask me to do it again
and for the rest of my life,
without expecting anything in return.
No reciprocity.
Can I do this?
So much is holding me back.
I am human.
I am weak.
I am not enough.
But you declare me enough.
I can't do this without you God.

Their True Heart (poems; part 4)

Part 4: Give Me You


My heart is worn.
The tide surges, flows back, returns again.
Relief is brief.
My spiritual high was not enough to sustain.
Things will never be the same
and yet old habits refuse to die.
The hope in my heart from the night before
even now begins to fade.
Where are you Lord?
What are you about to do?
Like an incoming storm,
I feel your presence in the air.
You used me powerfully
day after day
this whole week,
but my desire for recognition continues.
Remind me that the things done in secret,
the things only you see,
are the things that truly matter.
Lord take this heart, this life,
and give me You.
Take all of me.
Give me a heart that loves unconditionally,
A mind aimed at pleasing you and only you,
A soul unwavering from your will,
Strength that does not fail.
Give me ears that listen only to your voice,
Eyes that see you move.
Give me a mouth that speaks your words,
Hands that do your bidding.